The biggest temptation for me lately at the start of the day is the SNOOZE button. It takes so much to conquer it. So much that I press it twice before I actually get up.
Something has to change but while things haven't, it's still that inner struggle. Between the numbing comfort of the darkness behind the eyelids and getting up, standing up, dragging one foot out of the other to face the day.
Left, right, left, right and out the door. The daily battle.
If Johnny Depp were in the bed with me than obviously, I'd surrender.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Six weeks ago, I decided to act like Atlas and carry weight of the world on my shoulders. I became heavy, enclosed and gray and gloomy like the weather.
I've made several attempts to soothe my soul. I've started reading some Deepak Chopra and I tried a yoga class. Today, after the strapped the world on my backpack and headed out to do errands, I went over to exchange packages with a friend. The exchange was meant to take only a few minutes as I had a cab waiting.
Our items (a letter opener from her and a keychain from me) changed hands but right before I left, she gave me a HUG. It was quite unexpected and most welcome. She started off by saying something about knowing I've been having a tough go of it of late.
That one hug has turned my day around. I've smiled more today, I've worried less about my problems, I've had time to think about commitments our charity group made to the Silahis ng Kalusugan kids and work out a lunch my friend Cris is sponsoring at the White Cross.
I don't know if there are any scientific studies on the hug, but now I'm beginning to think random, genuine hugs have an incredible amount of power. Hugs are capable of conveying so many things--I miss you, it is good to see you again, thank you, I understand.
(Of course, there are also other types of hugs that say, "Hey, I really like touching you" but that is another story)
Hugs are magical and some of them can burst out with so much magic and positivity you just want to give a few out because it can't be contained. Hugs are easy and healing. And it's great to be reminded of that.